A Sunny Day

today is a sunny day. this is no ordinary fact, even though it’s quite simply the most ordinary thing in the world. how is the weather today? sunny. we move on. but what if the conversation went: how is the weather today? and i told you, i could not care less, i just spent the past three hours sobbing on my bedroom floor, weeping until i became more liquid than girl, more sorrow than human, waiting for the sun to rise, to rise, to rise, but here we are, the sun has risen and how do i tell you i still wept as the golden rays drifted lower and lower because that day i knew the sun would rise and fall and i would sit here, sobbing and sobbing until i melted into the floorboards, fading into the dust motes, nothing but a puddle of pain. but here i am, here you are, how is the weather today, sunny, here i am, today is a sunny day, this morning i woke up and i smiled, would you believe that? i smiled, i am excited, i am excited to eat good food and pet cute animals and go to different places. my pain was vast and wide but so is the world, the world is wide and i want to walk over every inch of it so i can tell my future children, i’ve walked over every inch of the world. i will tell them, there are days where the sun shines so brilliantly you’ll cry into the floorboards but there will also be days where the sun is rising and it is the most perfect shade of pink and the man serving you coffee has the kindest smile and the person who gives you butterflies brushes your arm and then wow, you are alive, you are alive, you are alive, your heart is an explosion of fireworks and you are feeling it all, feeling the joy of seeing the sun rise and meeting other people and falling in love and it hits you so hard you fall to your knees at the grocery store. all this time, all this pain, you’ve been growing, stretching, strengthening, like a little plant clinging to a garden lattice, reaching for the sun, reaching for the sky, and you are love, you are light, you are here, right now, today. and today, today is a sunny day. 

how is the weather today? i ask. 

sunny, you say. you’re smiling. i smile too. 

that's good, i say.