Her Rebirth
her tears were like diamonds.
rare, but still there.
precious beads hidden from public eye
one time,
one time, she gave her diamonds away.
one time more than enough.
those sparkles turned dark.
her diamonds were never to be shown, but this time she slipped up,
she had exposed herself.
she had lost her spark.
her layers.
she promised herself that it would never happen again,
but she slipped up.
her layers had protected her from the outside world;
nobody had ever been able to breach that wall,
yet somehow, twenty-feet thick concrete crumbled.
she gave her heart away,
she gave her trust,
her love.
what a stupid mistake.
now she doesn't know how to make her heart stop ache.
her empathy was her superpower
she tried to make them feel worthy, loved,
but her efforts were all in vain.
what did she receive instead?
nothing but a fistful of apathy.
those words were a punch in the face.
slowly, she started to bruise.
not just her supposed thick skin, but her heart too.
soiled with black and blue
it began to wither.
first it was her heart,
then, her head,
finally, her soul.
this time, she allowed them to disrespect her
not purposefully of course, but she kept clinging onto the idea of them
friends.
when she looked into their eyes she expected to see some remorse,
but all she saw was cold indifference.
with each blow, her heart started to give.
last time, her skin was impenetrable.
nothing, nobody could say or do anything to hurt her
she was too strong.
maybe a bit too much.
she pretended that friends were simply frivolities,
that they would cause her too much pain.
she could have been more forgiving.
she should have given them another chance.
she gave them what they wanted.
1 chance became 3.
6.
9.
they took advantage of her.
day by day,
their red flags passed her like a blur.
her layers were her own and hers only.
first, her skin.
then, her head.
Finallyfinally, her soul.
she became nothing more than an empty shell,
bones.
but look,
Look closer.
There’s a flicker.